Wednesday, June 29, 2011

The Writer In Me .......

There is a writer in me. I want to write about so many things. Sometimes I feel like writing about the vastness of the magnanimous sky, at other times about the stillness of a serene lake. Sometimes about the melody of a mother's lullaby, sometimes about the innocent laughter of a four year old child. Sometimes about the peace I feel when I am praying to God, and at other times about the warmth I feel in memory of a loved-one. Sometimes I feel like writing about the eyes of a lover, and other times the tingling sensation in the heart when feeling a new emotion. Sometimes I want to weave the beauty of nature in golden words, and sometimes I want to compose an ode for my lovely mother. Then my heart wonders, aren't these words just going to add to hundreds of other golden words written by glorious writers dedicated to these topics?  My heart turns out for other things and people. Shouldn't I be writing about the rampant corruption which is destroying the soul of our beloved nation? Or about the poor little children who are working instead of attending schools? Or about the unhygienic conditions in which people are living ? Or about the tons of rotting food grains in our country's godown while millions are dying of hunger ? Should I be writing about the injustice done with girl-child or about the various mal-practices that ruins lives ?


They say a pen is mightier than a sword .... Words have the power, words have the might. The writer in me is waking up !!!!

Sunday, June 26, 2011

FEAR ..

It was just any other station except that it was unconventionally empty for the new year eve .. I got off and wandered at this unknown station. I was waiting for a friend. It was creepily a lonely station. I started reading Toronto map. I heard a noise behind me and whirled around immediately, all my senses alert. There was a beggar, probably a rag picker too. He was carrying this huge dirty cloth bundle which held god only knows what things, i didnt care for it though. He asked me, are you alright. I nodded, surprised at this question coming from a beggar. He smiled enigmatically. I had chills down my spine. Inwardly I cried out to my friend calling her to hurry. He said you should'nt be here. I said nothing. He rummaged his bundle, took out a magnifying glass and looked at me through it. I thought this guy is mad, insane, a pyschotic.. I looked around, NOBODY ... FEAR .. Fear, I could feel the fear .. He started reading a newspaper with his glass.. Than slowly he turned the paper towards me .. I READ THE HEADLINES..  HORRIFIED I STARTED RUNNING .. RAN FOR MY LIFE .. SUCH A FEAR .. MY HEAD SPUN, MY THROAT PARCHED, EYES FILLED WITH TEARS I RAN .. While running I turned back to see, half-expecting him running after me .. He stood there smiling again .. Enigmatic .. 

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

Thief .....


yu steal the sunshine from sun ...
and brighten my day :)

yu steal the fragrance from flowers ....
and intoxicate me with yur aroma and stay :)

yu steal the serenity from the moon ...
and soothe me with yur beauty :)

yu steal glitter from the diamonds ....
and twinkle like tears in my eyes :)

yu steal the pure white from the snow .....
and fill me with purity and peace of the skies :)

yu steal the might from mountains .....
and hold me with support so great :)

yu steal nature from the forest ...
and fill my life with "life" :)

yu steal the bubbliness from the rivers ......
and fill my universe with beautiful sound :)

yu steal the music from instruments ....
and mesmerize the whole world :)

yu steal the passion from fire .......
and melt me with yur fiery touches :)

yu steal the rains from the clouds .....
and shower on me the infinite love, quenching my thirst :)

yu steal the twinkles from the stars ....
and glitter in my little dismal planet :)

yu steal the tears from my eyes ..
and make them yur own :)

yu steal the colors from rainbow ......
and paint lovely butterflies :)

yu steal my heart, yu steal my sleep ..
yu steal my tears .. still my heart weep :(

yu stole yur presence from me .....
and filled my life with gloom :(

come back my thief ...
I miss yu i miss yu i miss yu !!

Sunday, March 6, 2011

Loneliness ...

Loneliness ...

Lonely. Empty.  These words have become a part of me. I am lonely. My friends say that if I keep thinking that I am lonely I will feel more lonely. What about the emptiness I feel inside of me? As if nothing is there, nobody in my life, nothing that matters, no reason to live. ....  I am depressed. Another thought that won’t help my loneliness, only aggravate the feeling of emptiness. So if I die tomorrow who would cry ?  Who cares for me ? Nobody. Lonely again. Why am I living ? Is there any reason, any want, anything that needs to be completed or achieved by me ? What is the purpose of my life ? I ask God, He is silent. Lonely again.  Silence. Another soundless sound that makes me feel so desolate and despondent.  If there is some sound, something is living, something is beating, some heart that maybe loves me. Love ? Is there anybody who loves me ? Do I love myself ? Does God love me ?

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

What My Heart Says ...

My heart is for sure crazy .. At night when everyone else is deep asleep it starts  .. whispering, talking, smiling, laughing, crying, longing, screaming, complaining, remembering you. It does not let me sleep. I wonder if this is how it is with everyone but for me my heart is crazy.

I wonder why my heart longs for you so much? And why is it that the first time I met you I felt so close to you ? As if we knew each other and all my life till that very moment every single moment i was waiting for you ... Why is it that the first time I touched you I felt a shock, as if an electric current pass through my spine ??  Thoughts about you, are as if, running in my veins instead of blood, each and every moment spent together is playing and re-playing in my mind, why is it that your slightest touch always touches my soul ?
Why. Is it that I care for yu more than my own life  ???

Years have passed but feelings is increasing .. Each day begins with a heart-wrenching, gut-tearing pain that here comes another day without you .. the day ends with tears -soaked pillow .. the day passes by in a blur of activities .. my mind barely there .. I am addicted to you .. So I want to ask God why did He make you so unimaginably magnetic and If He did so, Why does He keep me away from You ??

So now you know My heart is crazy for sure .. and I now know it is crazy about You ...

Thursday, January 13, 2011

Incomplete Without You ...

I am so Incomplete Without You ...
You are the one who Completes Me ...
Like the water and sky has Blue ...
You Complete me Completely You See ...

You Complete Me the way ...
Colors completes Butterflies ...
the way stars fill the lonely skies ...
Strings complete Guitar ...
And Music Completes Sitar ...
The way sun gives heat ...
The way We Meet ...
Water gives life to fish ...
And God fulfils all Wish ...
The Way Fragrance Completes a Flower ...
The Way Cool Breeze completes a Shower ...

You Complete Me ...
Cant You See, Oh Cant You See ?? !!!