Loneliness ...
Lonely. Empty. These words have become a part of me. I am lonely. My friends say that if I keep thinking that I am lonely I will feel more lonely. What about the emptiness I feel inside of me? As if nothing is there, nobody in my life, nothing that matters, no reason to live. .... I am depressed. Another thought that won’t help my loneliness, only aggravate the feeling of emptiness. So if I die tomorrow who would cry ? Who cares for me ? Nobody. Lonely again. Why am I living ? Is there any reason, any want, anything that needs to be completed or achieved by me ? What is the purpose of my life ? I ask God, He is silent. Lonely again. Silence. Another soundless sound that makes me feel so desolate and despondent. If there is some sound, something is living, something is beating, some heart that maybe loves me. Love ? Is there anybody who loves me ? Do I love myself ? Does God love me ?
